Thorny torn times...

It's a familiar walk, the feeling of every chilled thorn piercing through the skin reminds me vividly of it. Not a feeling that I fancy.

I bled as I went through those thoughts of it...because I feel so much for her. Solution that I myself wouldn't imagine trying, I couldnt picture that fragile kid through that real hard time. I know it's tough, dear. Yet there's so little that I can do. Sometimes I feel words break the beauty of companionship....yet silence compliments it.

Speechless, I am now. You alone know why. I thank God that in these thorny torn times You are our pillar of strength. May you walk us out with your grace....and God you bless the broken road, that led me straight to You.

Ever tried grasping air?

Nearly hitting a year...there are heart pounding times which i have went through, heart aching times which i have yet want to mention. Ever since the passing of ma, it clears that line off entirely from my family tree...i realized i missed them more than before, wanting to talk to them more than before...probably because I will never get to anymore.

I begin to wonder why do we only treasure things when we are at the verge of losing it or lost it? Think, you'll know it applies to us all the time. Either we are too caught up with lives to realize it, or we are too comfortable with the existence of someone or something that we have taken them for granted. I urge myself, remind myself to not let any of these pass me by...every opportunity where i am able to touch lives.

At times i wonder, it's probably not too good a thing...yet it is just so me. God created me with these qualities which i sometimes dont know it's good or bad, and love yet hate. He taught me to trust that He knows best, and He created me specifically with these qualities for His glory.

Sitting by the window where i thought about the nights earlier, the blurred vision and the sudden wake doesn't seem to jive. I know the math and i know the answer....yet you don't get any marks if you don't show the calculation process...now that's the hardest to score....Ever tried grasping air with your hands? At that point it's exactly how it feels like....it's real, but you will never be able to hold it. You gotta keep inhaling, keep going, not giving up, in order to enjoy air the careful planned way it's supposed to be. Why? I dont know, but He does.

因为有你⋯⋯

頻頻天災的發生，痛心的報導讓我不想看也不想聽到任何最新消息⋯⋯
我不知道世界末日會在甚麼時候到來⋯⋯
我也不曉得該如何更保護家人或自己⋯⋯
我只知道
因為有祢 破碎的能歌唱
因為有祢 心中充滿盼望 我還能活出夢想

雖然心里有許多許多的疑惑，然而，我學習把這一切都交給祢，知道在祢裡面有答案！

或許⋯⋯我根本不需要答案⋯⋯
當我投入祢的懷抱中，一切的問號已經不重要了
因為有祢 生命能延續
因為有祢 我不再有恐懼 心能夠得安息

当生命里的压迫不断冲向我， 你的恩典够我用⋯⋯
我能继续向前，只因为有你。


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Left unspoken

Drafted about valentines earlier, but had been too caught up with things and hadn't had a chance to publish it....now that i'm in want of posting, the post seem expired....hence I decided not to. Probably keeping it for some time until I cleared it out the box, or keep until I next have a chance to post it.

How many times we're at the verge of uttering some words but never grab the opportunity to?
How many times we still go ahead and utter it even when the right timing is long gone?
How many times we finally waited until the next right timing to let it out?
How many times, we never had a chance to say what was meant to be said?

Human are often greedy, thinking to get a better timing, better person, better opportunity, which we may never get, and worse still, missed the earlier boat. It's all the battle of the mind, what we think and how we decide, and which is the final winning side.

The place where many dreams were buried, the grave, is also a place people stood by, in silence, in tears, or in the mind, uttering words left unspoken.....