Monday, June 25, 2012

Always on your side

Melodiously the familiar lines filled the air...I hadn't expect someone listening to this as I have never heard anyone did. Same words could mean so many different things especially when it's nearer to the 'it's complicated' state. Never had I wish to go thru yet the roller coaster of life does pass this very path on its track.

A step closer to what You prepared for me I hope. Yet, a still small voice tells me otherwise.

Flashback of the fallen tears wiped the screen cleaner, clearer and closer, to the reality.

Always on my side, are You. and you?

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Thorny torn times...

It's a familiar walk, the feeling of every chilled thorn piercing through the skin reminds me vividly of it. Not a feeling that I fancy.

I bled as I went through those thoughts of it...because I feel so much for her. Solution that I myself wouldn't imagine trying, I couldnt picture that fragile kid through that real hard time. I know it's tough, dear. Yet there's so little that I can do. Sometimes I feel words break the beauty of companionship....yet silence compliments it.

Speechless, I am now. You alone know why. I thank God that in these thorny torn times You are our pillar of strength. May you walk us out with your grace....and God you bless the broken road, that led me straight to You.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Ever tried grasping air?

Nearly hitting a year...there are heart pounding times which i have went through, heart aching times which i have yet want to mention. Ever since the passing of ma, it clears that line off entirely from my family tree...i realized i missed them more than before, wanting to talk to them more than before...probably because I will never get to anymore.

I begin to wonder why do we only treasure things when we are at the verge of losing it or lost it? Think, you'll know it applies to us all the time. Either we are too caught up with lives to realize it, or we are too comfortable with the existence of someone or something that we have taken them for granted. I urge myself, remind myself to not let any of these pass me by...every opportunity where i am able to touch lives.

At times i wonder, it's probably not too good a thing...yet it is just so me. God created me with these qualities which i sometimes dont know it's good or bad, and love yet hate. He taught me to trust that He knows best, and He created me specifically with these qualities for His glory.

Sitting by the window where i thought about the nights earlier, the blurred vision and the sudden wake doesn't seem to jive. I know the math and i know the answer....yet you don't get any marks if you don't show the calculation that's the hardest to score....Ever tried grasping air with your hands? At that point it's exactly how it feels's real, but you will never be able to hold it. You gotta keep inhaling, keep going, not giving up, in order to enjoy air the careful planned way it's supposed to be. Why? I dont know, but He does.

Friday, March 25, 2011


因為有祢 破碎的能歌唱
因為有祢 心中充滿盼望 我還能活出夢想


因為有祢 生命能延續
因為有祢 我不再有恐懼 心能夠得安息

当生命里的压迫不断冲向我, 你的恩典够我用⋯⋯