Taking a wrong lane led me to a longer way home today. The everyday road towards home which is so familiar...yet i took a wrong way....despite the familiarities....times where rationalities are clouded by a dreaming mind....
How many times have i taken a longer way towards my destiny because of a wrong turn, a wrong exit, a wrong lane, or led by a wrong gps signal? Numerous. I wonder if i could see the map of my life in the eyes of His, and probably i'll laugh at my stupidity and blurness of taking all the wrong ways, which took me to a longer route towards where i'm supposed to be earlier. Yet His assuring words says, "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future". And not only that, He does everything in His time.
He foreknew the turns i would take, far before i arrived at the crossroad. Why then? Didnt You alert me? Why didnt You grab me before i took that way. I did, He says....but I love you too much to make you a robot, which is why I let you choose. Choices. Sometimes I really hate them. Too little, we complain boring; too many, we became indecisive. They say women are hard to please. Sometimes i kinda agree :) Worst, after all the considerations, it's still a wrong choice, that's what i dreaded.
Am i too a perfectionist that i cant stand a mistake in my life? Or rather, is that i wish there were better ways to learn lessons instead of going thru the hard ways, which i chose them. Sometimes I tend to forget, and i guess people around me forget too...that i, am not a superwoman. Just a mere human sustained by His everlasting grace.
And i'm in need of more, to stay on the one way street leading me back Home....
Monday, January 17, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Have you found your package?
Many things in life, comes in a package....
With life, we have aging, getting sick, and death.
With love, we have misunderstandings, quarrels, sweet moments, and heartaches.
With truth, we have relief, pain, and often a pinch.
With great power, we have great responsibilities...
Since when I started pondering the packages of life, wonder why had He package things in such a way? Or rather, many times it was our homo sapien's shallow minds and hurried decisions that caused us into these kind of packages? The good package of creation comes with pleasure, purpose and eternal life. Yet a simple act of disobedience repackaged it. And often, we put the blame on someone, somewhere, someOne else...We wouldn't be able to understand how wrong we have been until we begin to embrace the good orginal purpose of mankind, and to accept the undying love of God towards human, and to build our faith on Christ whom people so condemned on the cross.
Some thought that one is not good enough to be a christian...truth is, none of us are. He come to heal the broken, cure the sick, and forgive the sinners. Not to gather perfect men to the heavenly club. Some thought life is meant for enjoyment, so let's wait till before one is dying, then we'll talk about religion...truth is, there's no religious talk here...it's only about the relationship with God the Father, to come back to His heartbeat for us, and mind you....nobody will know when is our last hour. I just got a news this morning of a passing away ex-coll of mine, who was supposed to get married this year....mind hammering news....i couldnt help to hold back the numbness i felt. Life is short, what do you want to use it for?
The package of sin, has came with the promising salvation through Christ. Have you found it?
Gazing upon the promising cross of a faithful friend, I know, I found where I belong.
With life, we have aging, getting sick, and death.
With love, we have misunderstandings, quarrels, sweet moments, and heartaches.
With truth, we have relief, pain, and often a pinch.
With great power, we have great responsibilities...
Since when I started pondering the packages of life, wonder why had He package things in such a way? Or rather, many times it was our homo sapien's shallow minds and hurried decisions that caused us into these kind of packages? The good package of creation comes with pleasure, purpose and eternal life. Yet a simple act of disobedience repackaged it. And often, we put the blame on someone, somewhere, someOne else...We wouldn't be able to understand how wrong we have been until we begin to embrace the good orginal purpose of mankind, and to accept the undying love of God towards human, and to build our faith on Christ whom people so condemned on the cross.
Some thought that one is not good enough to be a christian...truth is, none of us are. He come to heal the broken, cure the sick, and forgive the sinners. Not to gather perfect men to the heavenly club. Some thought life is meant for enjoyment, so let's wait till before one is dying, then we'll talk about religion...truth is, there's no religious talk here...it's only about the relationship with God the Father, to come back to His heartbeat for us, and mind you....nobody will know when is our last hour. I just got a news this morning of a passing away ex-coll of mine, who was supposed to get married this year....mind hammering news....i couldnt help to hold back the numbness i felt. Life is short, what do you want to use it for?
The package of sin, has came with the promising salvation through Christ. Have you found it?
Gazing upon the promising cross of a faithful friend, I know, I found where I belong.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
So long, twenty ten....
A year that is ending with much relaxation as our young tigers won some Cup and entitle the whole nation a day off on new year's eve. I have decided much earlier that I'll have a day off this day to be away, just away from the pushy reality I'm in. I needed a break so badly to shake off the tensed moments and juggled up thoughts.
And today as I flash upon the happenings in 2010....this fragile soul of mine is filled with awe and reverence on how Sovereign He is. Every part of it, He has so carefully planned, and painted the picture so beautifully for me. I still couldn't put in words how could the final two weeks went oops but deep inside of me, I know that His assuring words in Jeremiah never fails. For He knows the plans He have for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future.
Someone told me the other day that if we had known everything and have an answer to every 'why'.....we don't need the Almighty anymore. Simple profound truth. Mind boggling truth.
The chinese says a good starts marks half way to success...yet, the journey of faith is not about how we start....it's all about how we finish. I thank God today that this year end doesn't mark the end of my journey. I thank God today that I have a chance to come back to Him.
Father, I'm sorry, I've wronged You in my sinful ways, but I thank You that You forgive me, and love me as I am. Thank You.
I want to finish well, I pray.
And today as I flash upon the happenings in 2010....this fragile soul of mine is filled with awe and reverence on how Sovereign He is. Every part of it, He has so carefully planned, and painted the picture so beautifully for me. I still couldn't put in words how could the final two weeks went oops but deep inside of me, I know that His assuring words in Jeremiah never fails. For He knows the plans He have for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future.
Someone told me the other day that if we had known everything and have an answer to every 'why'.....we don't need the Almighty anymore. Simple profound truth. Mind boggling truth.
The chinese says a good starts marks half way to success...yet, the journey of faith is not about how we start....it's all about how we finish. I thank God today that this year end doesn't mark the end of my journey. I thank God today that I have a chance to come back to Him.
Father, I'm sorry, I've wronged You in my sinful ways, but I thank You that You forgive me, and love me as I am. Thank You.
I want to finish well, I pray.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
The ugly truth
Wonder why movie was named so....probably those type that A would love to watch :)
Not knowing what is it related, I ponder upon the word ugly....are all truths ugly? The most profound truth for mankind, still rejected unto this day, I could find no words to describe its significance in my life. But using the word beautiful to describe that truth? Ugly does sounds closer. No amount of description for ugliness represents the heart of the Romans at that very time, the hatred they spat, the mortal weakness they cherish.....A beautiful solution, an ugly truth.
I begin recalling that most of the time, truths are ugly, but it carries the most important element in it, it's none but the truth. When the true colors of mankind's nature first shown, A&E had to be chased out of Eden, it was ugly. The package of truth comes also with guilt, shame, pain, hurt and worst of all unforgiveness. Many years ago someone told me that forgiveness is a choice. A choice we could all make, crossing the thin fine line of punishing yourself and others into the freedom of facing the truth.
The ugly truth that is hammering me, and pinching my every bit to be awaken from the dream.....that dream? this dream? which dream? It's not important anymore.....Ouch~ I realized I am mere human, I too, know how pain is like, how hurt is like. Not saying ouch, doesnt mean I don't feel it, doesnt mean I'm immune to it. Interesting devotion I read this morning, Selwyn is writing about me. I am not to deny or to express the unpositive emotions, but acknowledge it. It's there, nothing can deny. It'l be there, even if I express. It'l be gone, when I acknowledge my meekness and let Him heal me.
Be calm, be brave, vivid words that cloud my mind. You are my strength, my hope, like no other.
Not knowing what is it related, I ponder upon the word ugly....are all truths ugly? The most profound truth for mankind, still rejected unto this day, I could find no words to describe its significance in my life. But using the word beautiful to describe that truth? Ugly does sounds closer. No amount of description for ugliness represents the heart of the Romans at that very time, the hatred they spat, the mortal weakness they cherish.....A beautiful solution, an ugly truth.
I begin recalling that most of the time, truths are ugly, but it carries the most important element in it, it's none but the truth. When the true colors of mankind's nature first shown, A&E had to be chased out of Eden, it was ugly. The package of truth comes also with guilt, shame, pain, hurt and worst of all unforgiveness. Many years ago someone told me that forgiveness is a choice. A choice we could all make, crossing the thin fine line of punishing yourself and others into the freedom of facing the truth.
The ugly truth that is hammering me, and pinching my every bit to be awaken from the dream.....that dream? this dream? which dream? It's not important anymore.....Ouch~ I realized I am mere human, I too, know how pain is like, how hurt is like. Not saying ouch, doesnt mean I don't feel it, doesnt mean I'm immune to it. Interesting devotion I read this morning, Selwyn is writing about me. I am not to deny or to express the unpositive emotions, but acknowledge it. It's there, nothing can deny. It'l be there, even if I express. It'l be gone, when I acknowledge my meekness and let Him heal me.
Be calm, be brave, vivid words that cloud my mind. You are my strength, my hope, like no other.
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